Road to wholeness


I don’t normally post things like this–I’m not much for self-help books or programs, mainly because I find their endless incarnations of modern psycho-babble to be mundane and boorish.

But if I’m honest with you (and with myself) the past 14 years of my life have not been lived to my potential. Heck, I’m not even sure I know what my potential is!

I do know, however, that I was not meant to be sluggish, fatigued and makeshift. That–is how my life feels today.

What do I mean by sluggish? Well, I partly mean lazy and I partly mean unmotivated and uninspired. I think this happened when I started working from home.

I work out of the house now, but I am an insurance agent. Let’s face it–insurance is boring. I sit in an office chair all day and talk on the phone about something entirely abstract. 

As for fatigued, this is largely a function of my major depression. Over time, medicine therapy and other types of help have curbed the fatigue. It’s a constant battle against curling up and morphing into Rip Van Winkle.

Makeshift is how I see myself when I trudge into work most days. OK, all days. I wake up with just enough time to feed and briefly walk the dog, grab some coffee to go and clean myself up. Forget packing a lunch or even showering some days. Cold cereal is a great meal, but I’d like some eggs and bacon now and then.

I’ve been inspired recently though, but some friends and some reading I’ve been doing. I need to lose weight, get healthy and be a whole person. To that end, I have a few starter goals in mind:

The first 30 days:

  • Wake up at 7 a.m….

OK, so this is the only goal I’m going to write down for now. I’m starting my goal tomorrow…so wish me well!

Writer’s Note: I’ll be updating this in the next few weeks to fill in some of the information gaps about my journey. I’m still letting them tumble around in my mind for now. Cheers!

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